I can’t seem to stop listening to Changes by Kelly and Ozzy Osbourne tonight.
These lyrics especially really hit home for some odd reason:
I feel unhappy
I am so sad
I lost the best friend
That I’ve ever had
I haven’t even really lost a best friend recently…technically, anyway. Hmm.
Today was my first day back into the swing of things! I’ve officially started my second year of college! I must say…where on Earth did the summer go? It truly ended with a bang…I didn’t see it coming at all! All of a sudden it was the last week of August and I just felt numb…letting time do it’s thing. My Dad says that with every year, it’ll go by that much quicker. Time. It’s a funny thing, really – isn’t it? I just adore Autumn, though and I’m actually relieved it’s back again. I was born in October so I think that’s why I love it so much. It runs through my veins. The season seems to provide me with a enormous amount of comfort…school, bundling up, Pumpkin Spice Lattes, a fresh start…
Or maybe it’s because I remember the times when I was little…how carefree I used to be and how there was absolutely nothing to worry about. I had not a care in the world. I miss that feeling. Now I care about everything…a little too much sometimes.
This morning started out to be quite a stressful day as I had a lot of school things to sort out but as soon as mid-afternoon hit and I had a class, I began to feel more at ease. Astronomy, I really wanted to take but was not neither enrolled in or on the waitlist for was at 2:30 and I was worried I wouldn’t be able to take it. But everything worked out in the end, just like my Mom said it would. It’s true – I worry way way way too much for my own good. I’m secretly afraid I gave myself hives today just from over-stressing. Seriously. Once I was settled in Astronomy class next to two people I knew, I looked down and realized my two index fingers had swollen up. But of course I blamed it on the *Raspberry* Passion Tea Lemonade I had picked up from Starbucks shortly before. I still don’t know…
I had work after school which I wasn’t too excited about obviously earlier in the day. By the time my class had ended, though I really didn’t mind. I enjoyed the class so much, the time flew by way quicker then I could have imagined. That’s a good thing. A real good thing. The teacher is really good. I hate those days where you keep looking at the clock, and only minutes pass. Luckily, I got to work with one of my favorite staff members tonight so that made the night way more bearable. My manager’s wife even insisted to let me go home early just because I had school in the morning. Thank you, Velma!
I’m happy that I had a better end to the day then it started out to be. I came home and watched the last half hour of this new show on the CW called 90210. It was really addicting…I wish I had’ve gotten home earlier to watch it from the start. I watched a favorite show afterwards, though on Family Channel which I can’t get enough of – Ned’s Declassified School Survival Guide. Ok. I know it’s a kid’s show and it’s on the freakin’ Family Channel. I don’t care. It’s amazing. Call me a nerd, whatever you want.
I’ve decided that I’m going to make tomorrow a great day! No matter what. Attitudes, moods, anything I’m simply not going to let get in the way. I’m going to get into the practice of being the best version of myself.
Why not give it a shot, right?
What have I got to lose? 
